- More people will understand infertility: what it is, and what a big deal it is.
- More people will know how best to support infertile couples... and what to say and not to say to them.
- My friends will understand why I have become so distant, and my writing will be a way to keep them close for the duration.
- I will get pregnant with a healthy, beautiful baby.
In a few weeks we start our second cycle of invitro fertilization. IVF is the two-month process by which doctors stimulate production of lots of eggs inside my body, surgically remove them when they appear to be ready, add them to a processed version of James's sperm, incubate them as they fertilize and form embryos, return them to my uterus, and then wait for two weeks to see whether it worked.
Four years ago I was in agony, despairing of ever meeting anyone like James. And then I did, and he has made me happier than I've ever been. But the same old despair has crept back into my life as I go through so much, and hope so desperately, for just a chance to have a baby to love. I'm hopeful that it will happen some day. So join us as we spend the next few months, or maybe years, trying to grow our family even more.